Sunday, October 4, 2009

Don’t know…











I never really knew what I had until it was gone. My family (Mom, Sister and Aunt) came from California to visit me and my daughters and my cousin Michael, they were here for only 3 days but I loved it!

I was so nervous knowing that they were going to come to my new “home”. What were they going to think? Would they think that I made a huge mistake? Would they not like the city and feel I made a bad decision? I was so nervous.

But of course I was completely wrong. They came and just loved on me and my girls. My mother cooked, made my home smell wonderful, and filled my new home with familiar scents that warmed my heart. My home had what I didn’t realized I missed so much…the laughter of familiar voices….the voices that I love, my family! We didn’t do too much exploring because what little time we did have we just wanted to spend it with each other. Catching up on things and they wanted me to show them what my day to day life consist of. The first night at my place my Aunt Martha brought a bag of Mexican sweetbread. I wanted to cry because that was one thing I missed about my family back home in California. I missed us sitting around talking, drinking coffee, laughing and eating sweetbread.

My sister brought her camera and took pictures of me and my daughters around town so that I can make my Christmas card. The weather didn’t cooperate but that just added to the fun of the experience.

All the while I realized that my family won’t be with me for the holidays. My mother has always made the holidays a special time…and I won’t have them this year. Much too quickly our time was coming to an end. My family celebrated Serena’s 17th birthday with us and we all had a great time.

My mother brought us warm blankets, sweatshirts, thick socks and pj’s for the girls. She also bought me a pair of rain boots and my sister bought me a large umbrella. You have no idea how much those things were needed and how we appreciate all that they did for us.

Sunday morning came to fast and my family was off. As I hugged each one I didn’t want to let go. You can’t leave me yet. I feel strong and safe when I am wrapped with their love. I didn’t want them to leave my home. I couldn’t stop crying as they drove away. That’s my family!

Then it hit me. You never fully realize what you have until it’s gone. You just don’t know. Thank you for coming to visit us. Thank you for the laughter, encouragement and love that you poured on me and my daughters. I love you more than words can say….

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