The Meantime

A little over a week and a half I have been dealing with some emotions that I couldn’t place. Besides being physically tired from a job that I haven’t performed since I was 18, I honestly wasn’t in a mood to deal with much.

So let me explain.

Have you ever known that something great is awaiting you? Have you ever just known that great things were not too far from presenting themselves to you? It’s an exciting feeling and time to know that this is your season to reap the harvest. It’s a time for your barrels to be filled.

So here I am with my two daughters. We moved from California to Chicago. I gave it all up and trusted the Lords guidance. I got our place and settled us in. Then started looking for work, and continued to look for work, and continued…. WOW! Still looking, went to a couple of interviews and felt good about them but nothing!

FINALLY something opens up and it’s not what I wanted…but its something. Got my first week of work in and realized how much I hate this job. Oh my goodness. God you have to open other doors. First of all the pay will not even take care of the basic needs of my home. Winter is coming and I’m not ready. Second, I hate this work! My body is aching, my head is killing me and I have had a stiff neck since my first day on the job!!

Do you know that there was one day as I was getting ready that I just cried? I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to do this. But I had no choice; there was no other way that I was going to make money other than going to work…to a job I hated!

I knew God had not abandoned me but I didn’t understand. I was so exhausted that I would come home to fall asleep shortly after. I lost my joy…I was too tired to be happy. Finally on my day off I prayed and told the Lord that I knew He didn’t bring me here to work in a deli. I knew something big was about to happen and asked Him to give me the physical strength to be faithful to the job He has opened for me. Yes, I continue to send out my resume and I know that this job is only for a season. So I’m not fighting it any longer, this is my job.

This is what I have learned so far from this experience. As Christians we understand that life has its “seasons”. We have experienced all of them in our life at one point or another. Who doesn’t love a season of spring or summer? It’s a time when we feel Gods light shining on our lives and we feel blessed. There is an easy flow in that season; it’s a time of rest. And it is meant to be enjoyed to the fullest. But even in our seasons of fall and winter when our lives are being pruned and purified it too has a blessed time. For me even though it’s a tough season, I grow in my relationship with the Lord.

I’m in a season I call “The Meantime”. I’m understanding it the longer I’m in it. Here I was standing on the Word of God asking Him to part my red sea, to be big in my situation. Here I am God I believe and know you will come through!!!

DO IT NOW!

I acted like He is a magician and with a wave of His wand all will be fixed.

I now understand that this is my season to be in….the meantime. Do I still feel like greatness awaits me? Most defiantly I do! Do I know that God has great plans in store for me? Yes I do and I know that they will come to pass. But this is my season and I will bless the Lord in all I do!

My God is with me every step of the way. He is my God of the Valley and Mountain Top…and He is with me in the meantime….