FIGHT

“Not enough men have come, we cannot win.”
“No we cannot, but we will meet them in battle nonetheless.”
- King Théoden of Lord of the Rings

What I love most about those movies if the valor that is seen throughout the 3 films. I often thought how sad that that type of living is not often seen in today’s world. Living a life that is bigger than you, standing for a purpose that you may not see to the very end but knowing you were a part of it.

I was wrong. Valor is still living just not as evident as it was in times past. This is how I see valor in my world. I see it in the person who may get knocked down….but gets back up again. It’s in the person who goes after their dream even when everyone around them is telling them its time to let it go. I see it in the person who knows their life was meant for a purpose and even if they are in their latter years they seek that purpose out in order to fulfill it. Yes! Valor is still alive.

Last week I felt like the biggest blow had hit me since arriving in Chicago. This situation could have caused me to say “Well I gave it my best shot, guess I’ll go back to my family.” I could have looked at it and thought “I guess it’s just not meant to be”…but I didn’t! The moment I got the letter I went to my room and prayed. I told the Lord there is nothing I can do and I give it all to you. I trust you Lord and know you will provide for the need. I then returned to what I was doing and soon left for work. The next day was the hardest. I felt my emotions moving instead of holding firm to the knowledge that God will see me through this. I began to fall apart at work and rushed to the restroom to ask the Lord for His help. “Lord I don’t want to fail you in how I respond, I trust you Lord, give me the strength to walk this path.” And He did.

I remember when I was praying I said, “Lord if you want me to return to California I will” then I thought NO! I told the Lord I knew this was His will and I want it all! I’m not going to settle, Lord give me all that you promised! You said for me to prepare my barrels and that You will bring all my goals and dreams to pass and that you are bringing my husband. NOPE! I’m not going back…my feet only know how to move forward, so I want it all Lord. All that you have for me….I want it!

I believe that as Christians we sometimes lose the “fight” in us. But what if you’re living the life God wants for you and still blows come and knock you down? What will your response be? Will you fight for your hearts desire? Will you fight for your child’s salvation, for the restoration of your marriage, for a love to return to you for your spouse, for your dream? Will you fight or resign yourself to the thought that “I guess it was meant to be this way”?

I chose to fight!

“It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; He enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn.” Psalm 18:32-36