In Love

This emotion…Love, it gives you wings, you take flight wherever you are and no matter how grave any situation may become love gives you the strength to fly above it.

I’ve never know what it is to be married but I do know what it is to love with my whole being. I loved my ex in that way…with every fiber within me. And with no regrets I can look back with a smile because the fact is…I loved. The breakup was a life shifting experience and I wondered if I would ever love or one day experience marriage. But with God’s loving guidance I walked through the valley of healing, releasing all my pains, hopes and dreams that were all tied to that relationship.

Love give you wings…I have a pair of wings again but this time bigger, stronger and the tie runs deep.

I think of Him when I wake up. I go to Him when I’m hurting and He is the first one I look to when something funny occurs. I seek His guidance when facing a fork in the road. I try to stay aware of my relationship with Him, that there is always balance and that I don’t neglect it. I fear that I may get so caught up with day-to-day life that He would feel like I have pushed Him aside, when He deserves the very best. His love comforts me, strengthens me, and guides me. He is my confidant, He knows all my secrets and my deep hearts desire, He loves me even when I’m not deserving of it and He always desires the best for me.

I have known the Lord since I was a child but only until recently have I fallen in love with Him. Words fail me in describing what His love gives me…but it gives me more than I could ever have imagined. And yes I do know that one day I will know what it is to love in the context of marriage. How do I know this…because He promised that He is bringing him to me.

Proverbs 31:30 “Charm can fool you, and beauty can trick you, but a woman who respects the Lord should be praised.”

I have also fallen in love with my children. From the first day they entered my life, I loved them. This move has made the three of us come together in a way that I didn’t expect. They look out for me and try to make me as comfortable as possible, with my crazy work hours I see them make every attempt to bring ease to me. I sat them down not too long ago explaining that were not going to have a Christmas with presents this year but that I still want to decorate. So we hung up our stockings (it pained me to think that I won’t be filling them this year) Serena decorated our tree as we listened to Christmas music. They saw how I was sad that I wouldn’t be able to put presents under our tree and with that they said, “But we have each other and isn’t that what’s its all about”? I looked at them and agreed. I love them so much and am eternally grateful that the Lord allowed me to raise these beautiful ladies.

Love…its gives you wings. Release yourself to fly again!